Friday, April 23, 2010

A picture is worth a thousand sighs

I’m grumpy today.

I thought about not writing, but I felt guilty for only blogging once this week. So here I am in all my grumpy glory.

Losing weight is hard, you know? I’m still in this struggle with the mental part. I know I’ve come a long way, but it’s so easy to forget that.

Today, my dad sent me the photos from my friend’s wedding. I felt pretty good that night. I was proud of myself (and told anyone who would listen) that I had finally achieved the perfect smoky eye. I loved my dress. I was surrounded by friends and family I love.

And then I saw the pictures. That same fat girl is still staring into the camera. Sure, maybe she’s 35 lbs. less fat, but still…

It’s why I avoid pictures altogether. I know I’ll eventually be happy to be photographed, and I’ll probably want some pictures for posterity’s sake when I reach my goal. But for right now, I’m just bummed. To me, I don’t look any different.

I’m going to leave you with a few pictures—I want to put them up so that in a few months I hopefully *will* be able to see the difference.

I’m sorry to be a Debbie Downer today. I’ll snap back Monday and be back to my chipper self. Promise.

My dad and me.

My brother, Christopher, and me.

My friend Zach, nephew of bride and groom, and me.


Anonymous said...

God, that dress was gorgeous... Loved it.

You looked beautiful, you are beautiful and while YOU can't see a difference, everyone else can -- promise.

And yes, you did achieve the *perfect* smoky eye. : )


Anonymous said...

Erika, you are truly 'losing it!' I saw you live and in person only once, and can see such a difference in these photos!!! Keep it up, girl!

Love ya....
Laurie(Koby's Mom, Ronald McDonald house guests, February 2010)

kicks said...

You are doing great, you looked amazing, and dang, girl, you did get that smoky eye! Nicely done!

But you are also entitled to feel grumpy every now and then. It happens.


Tiffany said...

Holy smokes! You look great, Erika! I can really tell you've lost weight (really!). I think you look fantastic. Also, love the dress!

Flynnsight said...

True story here: When I look at those photos, I leave with a single takeaway: You. Were. Glowing.

Confidence is a good color on you, my friend. Can't wait until you have a wardrobe chock full of it! :-)

Anonymous said...

You looked beautiful!!