Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Am I broken?

Last week I hit the reset button. But it looks like I'm going to have to hit it again.

I fear I may have reached the dreaded plateau. I've pretty steadily lost weight since starting all this, but it's just not happening right now. Last week I did really well. I felt super in control for the first time in a while. I counted all my points, I worked out extra hard.

And I didn't lose an ounce.

Fast forward to this past weekend. I was at the Ronald. Someone had kindly donated 60 (yes, 60) pounds of Halloween candy. And this wasn't the crappy candy, either. There were no Smarties or Whoppers or Bit O' Honey. We're talking full sized Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, Snickers, Twix. Dangerous stuff. Then these lovely ladies cooked a veritable Mexican feast Saturday night. Even more dangerous.

I stepped on the scale Monday morning and was up almost 5 pounds.

Are you kidding me? Why is it so hard to lose and so easy to gain? Sometimes I long for the days where I weighed more than 300 pounds and was losing. It seemed so much easier then. Now, as I get closer to my goal, I have to break myself to lose an ounce, but indulge just a little to gain a lot.

I'm frustrated. All 5 of those pounds didn't stick, but today I had the worst weigh-in since I started all this. I was so happy with myself last week. I felt so great. And now I just feel defeated.

I'm going to power forward. It's what I do. And hopefully I'll have better news next week.

For now, though, don't give up on me. I'm having a hard enough time not giving up on myself.


Charlotte Marie said...

I totally hear you on this! As someone who is only 5'3", I feel your pain on it being so easy to gain and so hard to lose. This reader is sticking with you. If you keep up all the healthy habits like you said, it will definitely show up on the scale eventually! You are an inspiration for making it this far in your journey...no turning back now.

PS - I love the "favorite things" posts; I discovered skinnytaste.com through one of your posts and now it's a go-to for recipes!

Anonymous said...

NEVER NEVER NEVER give up. just keep telling yourself that it's not an option. you have come so far. you will get through this. Plateaus in weight loss are very common! In fact it would be abnormal if you didnt have one. Your body will eventual go back to losing the weight again. You will reach your goal. Rememeber your body used to weigh over 300 pounds. Sometimes the body will hold onto weight if it feels like you are going overboard to get it off. be patient with your body and it will respond the way you want it to. You are a gorgeous, amazing woman and I am so humbled by your grace and courage in sharing your inspirational story with us all!

Anonymous said...

You have come so far and done AMAZING things. Stay the course and you will continue to succeed! The mind is a powerful thing which is why you have been so successful. You have such a positive outlook and that will help you go the distance.
Picture yourself at your goal weight. Boy, doesn't that look awesome. :) It's in your reach.
You've got this!

Anonymous said...

You're doing just fine. You probably just have a buildup of waste in your colon that is waiting to be eliminated. That is one of the biggest reasons you can do everything right and still not lose. Just give it a week or two and don't be discouraged. Maybe increase your fiber and drink more water.