Wednesday, December 7, 2011

News from the top

I was in fourth grade when I got my first one. I can remember going to J.C. Penney with my mother, both embarrassed and secretly excited to be growing up.

But any excitement I felt quickly vanished when I went to school the next day. The white blouse of my school uniform did little to hide the mortifying fact that I was the first girl in my class to get a bra.

I was teased as a child for them. Mistaken as an adolescent for being much older than I was (if kids 12 and younger ate free, my mom wanted to bring a copy of my birth certificate), and, as an adult, struggled with extra sports bras and contraptions to get me through a workout. Big boobs just get in the way.

Soon, though, they won’t. Next Thursday, Dec. 15, I will be undergoing breast reduction surgery.

My emotions about this are mixed. I’m mostly excited. I know this is ultimately going to be a fantastic thing for me. Since I was approved for surgery, I’ve been fantasizing during my workouts about how much easier it will be without these things threatening to hit me in the face.

I’m also nervous, though. I’ve never had a major surgery, and this one is no joke. The recovery is pretty extensive, though friends of mine who’ve had it told me it was easier than expected. I hope that’s the case for me, too.

One thing that worries me is getting back into my exercise routine when I’m able. Since I started this whole journey in January 2010 (nearly two years ago—hard to believe), I haven’t gone longer than a week without working out. When I had my initial consultation, one of the first questions I asked was about getting back into my gym routine. The nurse told me I had to wait six weeks before I could resume any high-impact exercise. If you had told me two years ago I couldn’t work out for six weeks, my response would have been a shrug of the shoulders and a “So?” Now, it’s one of my biggest concerns. The nurse told me I could walk, but I’m not sure she realizes how I push my body on a regular basis. Walking just isn’t going to cut it. Still, I’ll do what I can.

I’ll be out of work from next Thursday through the end of the year. I’ll update you here about how I’m doing when I’m feeling up to it (don’t worry—no pictures!). I feel like this is a culmination of something I’ve wanted to do for so long. In fact, the nurse said my weight loss was the major selling point to my insurance company. At the same time, I’m a little scared. So I’ll appreciate all your good thoughts.

And when it’s all said and done? Maybe I’ll actually become a runner. OK, maybe not.


Anonymous said...

That's awesome, my mom wants a reduction as well. She has lost about 50 pounds, but her boobs make her look much heavier than she is! Plus, her back hurts. I hope she gets it one day. Let us know how you're feeling afterwards :)

CD said...

GoOD LUCK, Erika!!! You can do it!!!! It will be So great for you! I'll be praying for you and a successful surgery. Can't wait for the updates, girl!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations Erika and Good Luck! Im sure everything will go smoothly and I will be praying for a speedy recovery! Yay!

Anonymous said...


I know it has been a big decision... and I am so happy for you! My prayers will be with you! A wonderful way to start a new year!

You're the best!

"Aunt Peggy"

MB said...

I'm so thrilled for you! I know it's a scary thing but 6 weeks will fly by and it will be in the past before you know it. This is just one more amazing triumph along your journey. I can't wait to see the results..not like really...just from a far. :)

Anonymous said...

Hope your recovery does go quickly! Thanks for sharing!

Anonymous said...

I'm so excited for you! Thanks so much for sharing your journey with us--you are such an inspiration to me. I joined WW this fall (and a gym)and have already lost 15 pounds. I have a lot more to go, but I feel SO much better! I have made a list of your favorite things and am looking forward to trying the cauliflower mashed "potatoes", LOL!