Friday, March 30, 2012

Great gratitude

Thank you.

I've been overwhelmed this week by your emails and your comments. Your encouraging words have been such a comfort to me.

I remember when I wrote my first blog entry nearly two and a half years ago. It was such a scary thing--to share my story and my deepest fears and shame with strangers. But your support has kept me going, even when I wanted to quit.

I've wanted to quit a lot the past couple of weeks. Without going into the details of how I'm dealing with things, I've had good days and bad ones, but food-wise? Mostly bad. Still, I think because I'm aware of what I'm doing, and, more importantly, WHY I'm doing it, I'll be more determined than ever to get back on track.

I've been looking over my weight loss for the past year and have noticed how much I've slacked--my weight hasn't changed that much since last summer. I wanted 2012 to be the year I finally reach my ultimate goals. I still think that's possible. I have to believe that. And I can't let anyone get in the way of what I want.

I need to challenge myself. I need to focus. And more that anything, I need to believe in myself. I think I lost that somewhere along the way. Right now, I need to remember that I'm really worth this.

In the meantime, though, I have a lot of emails to answer. If you're new to "Erika is Losing it," welcome! I encourage you to read some of my older entries. I always appreciate your comments and your emails.

I'm not really sure what I'd do without you guys--despite having never met most of you. Thanks for inspiring me.


LT said...

That's what I'm talking about! Love you bunches!

Anonymous said...

I have been thinking about you and looking for you around the park. My weight loss, too has plateaued and I am not as motivated as I want to be. I read your blog looking for inspiration and often I find it. Recently though, I have found that I am not alone and my struggles are not unique.
Thanks for sharing and I will look for you on the walking track or in a class.

Kellynn18 said...

Oh, Erika, I don't know how you do it, but you are always expressing the things I think and feel way better than I ever could! I have been struggling with similar things recently--not a break-up, but eating with good emotions and bad, trying to get re-motivated, and just the overall struggle with weight/food in general. You are just so awesome. No matter what happens. You could not lose another pound, and you would still rock. I am just in awe of your ability to be so honest. You can do it. Be yourself, and you will shine! Good luck with the food :) We love you!

Anonymous said...

Please stop beating yourself up. You expect yourself to continue to lose at the rate you did when you had well over 100 pounds to lose? That wouldn't be possible, yet you seem to think you are failing because you have slowed way down. It sounds trite, but it really is the journey, not the destination that we should focus on and appreciate. You look great right now. I know you feel way better than you used to. So appreciate that you are still just trying to lose one pound at a time and you will eventually get there. You're wonderful and we all love you.