Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Failure is an option?

Today was my first day back to boot camp. Well, technically it was Monday, but I wasn't feeling well and missed day one.

I did...OK today. To be honest, I didn't even lace up my shoes in between my boot camp sessions. I have been slacking. Big time.

In fact, I've been slacking now for a year. And it's time to stop. I'm going to commit myself to this session of boot camp, not just to the exercise part, but the diet part. I'm going to really watch what I eat. Count my Weight Watchers points. Give up Diet Coke (seriously).

I'm kind of over being in this rut. It's summer. Last summer, I weighed the same as I do now. Yet, I felt a little happier. I was moving forward. Now I'm just feeling down and defeated. And that's not how I want to continue my life. I mean, y'all are tired of hearing me whine, no?

I can blame things on my dating life that's not going the way I want. I can blame it on my surgery. The truth, though, is that I am the one who needs to accept responsibility.

So for now, I'm dedicating myself to this next four weeks. Clean living, a more positive outlook. I'm going to try. But I'm kind of sick of failing. So I won't.

At least I hope.


Anonymous said...

I don't think anyone is sick of hearing you "whine". But if you want to see some progress, maybe go back to the things you were doing when you first started this journey and you were shedding pounds like crazy. I'm sure it won't happen as fast this time since you don't have nearly as much to get rid of, but you should see some progress that way.

Erika said...

Very true. That's kind of what I am trying to do. Back to the basics. :)

Lauren Fowler said...

Hugs from a bootcamp buddy...I'm right there with you. I did run the Peachtree, but ever since then I have been a giant slacker, mostly because of work stress, and I'm totally a stress eater. So, I'll commit with you to do awesomely these next four weeks, both in exercise and in diet! We can do it!

Erika said...

Aww, thanks so much for reading and commenting, Lauren, my fellow "Hail Mary" planker. :) Let's definitely hold each other to it! See you in the morning!

Anonymous said...

you are never whining! you are being honest. you are not sugar coating. you are being REAL and I admire the hell outtah that.

So keep on saying whatever you need to on here-the good, the bad, the ugly. it all inspires me. I think you are simply awesome and I am so proud of you.

Thanks for sharing your journey.

Love, Katie "girl on da fone" :-)

LT said...

I love it. From what I hear, slacking is "going around." But it's never too late to start over. One day at a time...shoot, sometimes its one hour or minute at a time. As long as you get there. Love you!

Anonymous said...

Katie is right. You are being honest. I don't think anyone would even want to read your blog if you were all "la la la, everything is going great" all the time! You share your ups and downs with us and we love you for it!
~Laura S.