Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Looking back, moving forward

Happy New Year, everyone!

I’m back at work and ready to make 2012 the best year yet. I hope you are, too. I’m feeling fairly well after my surgery, though I plan to write more about that Friday.

For now, I wanted to look back at 2011. I had some highlights and some lowlights—some ups and some downs. All important steps along my ultimate journey. All opportunities for learned lessons.

In 2011, I:
  •    Took a fantastic trip with one of my best friends to visit Los Angeles and hang with Oprah.
What I learned:
Flying—and traveling in general—is much easier than it was when I weighed 300 pounds. I was able to fit comfortably on a plane (a middle seat, even!) and take in the sights without dying of exhaustion.

What I learned:
Running may not be for me. And that’s OK. Trying something new and getting out of my comfort zone is important—and just because I’m not good at it does not mean I’m a failure.

What I learned:
So much. It was one of the first times since I started losing weight that I was really sent into a tailspin. I didn’t expect the ripples of that experience to be so far-reaching, but indeed they were. I learned that 13-year-old Erika, and the things she went through, very much shaped who I am today. Both for good and for not-so-good. 

 What I learned:
I can actually accomplish goals. And I still have a long way to go. But every single one of those pounds was a different lesson in itself—a triumph over a battle I’ve been fighting most of my life.

 What I learned:
Eating healthy is important. But so is eating the most amazing biscuits of all time. We all need to treat ourselves. Yay biscuits!

What I learned:
I’m a very lucky girl. I’ve never felt so overwhelmed with love and support. You guys are an essential part of every pound I’ve lost.

What I learned:
I have the best job ever. And dreams can come true—especially when the timing is perfect.

What I learned:
      Dating is interesting. I’ve met some great guys. I had my heart hurt a little. I had dates that led to fantastically hilarious stories to tell over cocktails with my friends. I learned that I’m worthy of finding someone perfect for me. I learned that whether or not a relationship is successful is actually not all about me. And I learned that I have a lot of hope for the future.

What I learned:
    Cauliflower is the most awesome thing EVER. 

What I learned:
Stay tuned. The lessons are still coming and, I suspect, will be for a long time.

I can’t wait to see what 2012 has in store for me. For all of us. Looking back at your 2011, what will you most remember?


Anonymous said...

wow! erika, you are amazing. this was great to read. and I am so glad you are recovering nicely from your recent surgery.

I am a food addict. Though I have never been overweight, I do understand the connection to food and how hard it is to have a healthy relationship with it. I ate to fill a deep void in my life, i ate to numb the pain i feel. I struggle with it every single day. If I eat one cookie, I am a horrible person and might as well eat 50. Those voices are hard to turn off and I am so proud of you for all the victories you have made. You truly inspire me.

I will most remember the painful lessons I have learned this year, how what I say can hurt people and how the relationship I had with someone I love so much was destroyed because of me. Ouch. It hurts. and I can only hope 2012 brings healing, redemption, and wholeness for me. Because no matter what we have done in our lives, we all deserve it. even me.

I love you, Erika. and wish you only great things always. Thanks for sharing your journey with us.

Katie aka girl on the phone :-)

Anonymous said...

Not to say that this year won't be without a challenge or two, but I'm kind of thinking that 2012 is all yours.

Happy New Year, E. So proud of you. : )

Anonymous said...

Your best post, yet. Thanks for sharing lessons learned.

cd said...

You have had an amazing year. Wow. Love that you really thought through the big experiences and pulled out a lesson from each one. That's awesome!

I made mashed cauliflower last night (with a little sharp cheddar and Smart butter - salt and pepper) - YUMMO!

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